Believe

What is the word believe stand for? I just want you to believe me, trust me. Why is it so hard? Maybe, for you..I'm not that good, I always break promise. But this time, I really need your trust toward me. I want you trust everything I said. After those thing happened,  I have grown up. I'm not that little girl that always break promise, I have change myself to a better me. Because I really regret, I dunwan anything bad happen between us anymore. I have correct my mistakes, but, I dunno, u will take the risk to trust me again or not. Am I worth for you to believe in me? Or maybe, u have already give up on me earlier. I dunno what will happen between us in the future. But if god let us have the scond chance to get back together, will you believe in me again?
什么是相信? 我只是要你相信我,这很难吗?可能吧。。我并没那么好,好的可以让你信任我,因为过去的我曾经违背了我们之间的诺言。可是这次,我是真心地想得到你的信任。人是会长大的,发生了一些事后,我长大了。我不再是个违背诺言,违背承诺的人,我在那件事后成长了,我把自己变得更好。当一个人真正后悔了,自然会改变。因为我不想要因为一样的错误而再破坏我们之间的关系。我错的地方我改了,可是我不知道,你还会不会去冒这个险去相信我。我还值得你去相信吗?或许,你早已放弃我了。我不懂未来的我们会怎样。可是,如果有一天上天再次安排我们在一起,你会在选择相信我吗?

I promise..

我曾经。。
答应自己,不再去想你。
答应自己,不要在哭泣。
答应自己,不要在理你。
答应自己,不会在关心你。
答应自己,要笑着面对。
答应自己,要忘掉你。
答应自己,要忘掉以往的一切。
可是为什么,我答应了自己的事,到现在还做不到?
不管你对我做了什么事,只要你有事,我一定会帮你。
明明说好了,不再想你,不再为你哭泣,不再理你,不再关心你,可是, 我却心软了。

I have promised myself so many thing, but I break the promise once you came and find me.
I know, you hurt me alot, but why, I still missing you?
Why am I so stupid?  All also because I still loving you.

Dear god...

Dear god,
What you want from me? What you want me to do? What is the message you trying to bring to me? Im tired of all those challenge u gave to me. Can I just give up? If I give up in this challenge, will you promise to give me back my belongings? To me, they are so precious. I love them, I want them. I cant afford the pain of losing them. I want them to come into my life and wont leave me again. But why is it so hard? Is it because I not good enough to have it? I beg u, dun take back all those thing from me. Once u have sent those present to me, they are belongs to mine. You got no right to take them back. I just a human being who deserve for a normal life. Please, dun be so cruel to me.
致上帝,
其实,您要的是什么? 您要我如何继续走下去? 您做的一切是为了什么? 是要让我明白些什么? 我只想告诉您,我累了。你所给的挑战太大了,我并没你想向的那么强大。我可以放弃,认输吗? 如果我认输了,属于我的一切可以麻烦您还回给我吗? 对我来说,他们都是很重要的东西。我爱他们,我要他们。我想我应该再也不能承受起失去他们的那种痛。我要他们再次出现在我的生活里,然后永远都不会在离开我。可是为什么这一切都那么地难?是不是因为我不配拥有? 我求您,不要把原本属于我的东西一样一样地从我身边拿走。当你决定把他们送给我的时候,他们就已经属于我。送出去的礼物就不可以再收回,您也没权利收回。我要的不多,我只想要过个平凡的日子。如果可以,不要对我那么残忍。

We are friend? Stranger? Or dun have any relation?

Are we friend? Or just a stranger? Maybe, you have forget about me since the day u leave me. But I'm the stubborn one which still keep my promise that I have make. I still believe that you will back to me one day. However, I still scare. I scare I will lose you for second time again. I very blur about our relation right now. Sometime you will still care me like I'm still yours. But sometime u will treat me like a stranger. I dunno what I should do, can I care and treat you like my own boy? Or maybe I need to stay away from you? Can anyone told me about that? So that I wont make any mistake. I dunno what I should do right now. I hope, you will come and tell me tht I should treat you like my own boy.
其实现在的我们是什么关系? 朋友? 还是只是陌生人? 也许打从那天起,你就已经 把我给忘了。只留下固执的我在原地呆呆地等着你,完成着当初对你许下的承诺。无论如何,我还是相信你还会再一次地回到我身边。可是我很怕,我害怕有一天你会再次离我而去。我们之间现在到底是什么关系? 我应该在像以前一样去关心,并照顾你? 还是把你当成陌生人, 对你的事一律不闻不问? 我很混乱,脑袋一片空白。我希望你会告诉我,要我以女朋友的身份去关心,去照顾你

Life °•°

Finally, I have make a final decision. Certain people might think that  decision making is a simple task, but in real life it was so hard. It is because a good decision may bring you to a brighter future. I hope I have make a correct one because God will never give us second chance to re- think about the decision that we have make. So,  I wont allowed myself to fall down. This is the the decision that I have make, no matter what will happen, I will never give up easily. Yes, people might said I have change alot, i have become more independence. But don't ever forget there is always  some reason for me to do so.  Because of this all things which had happened I told myself to be more tough because I still have a long journey to go.The journey toward my future might be hard, but I will walk slowly and carefully. Walk alone even will be more better, because no one will  harm or hurt you.

今天,我终于做了最后的决定。我定下了接下去我应该走的路。其实每个人都觉得要决定一件事情并不难,可是在现实生活里,这一切刚好相反。 一个好的决定将会给你带来好的未来;反之,不好的决定将会影响你的一身。我只希望这将会是个对的选择,对的决定,因为上天公平地对待每一个人,他只给每个人一次的机会,会不会把握就靠自己了。他不会偏帮任何人,他也不会因为你后悔了,想要在从新决定或选择而给你另一个机会。所以我不会再让自己做错任何的错,也不会让自己跌倒。不管未来的路多么的困难,我还是会继续走下去,我不会怨任何人,因为这一切都是我自己的选择。可能从前认识我的人都会觉得我变了,可是请记得,每个人会去改变是有一定的原因的。我遇到的足以让我去学会成长。就算未来的路不好走,可是我还是会一个人把它走完。一个人走总比到后来再次被人伤害来的好。

Appreciate before it is too late

Appreciate.. A word which everyone know to to write or even pronounce. It was a common word which everyone will  know it's meaning. But, how many of us will really appreciate something or someone we use to have. We never thank to god for what we have or sometime we even blaming the god due to the unfairness. Yes, we always heard people advise us tht,  learn to appreciate before it was too late. But how many people will really give a thought of it. Some people not even care about it and wont show a little appreciation to people who always beside h im/her. It is because they know, the people which always stay beside him/her wont leave them. People, dun always take thing for granted.  Please learn to appreciate before you  lost something or someone that you use to have. Life will never give you second chance to correct all those mistakes, so don't make yourself regret. Learn to APPRECIATE before it was too late! Especially to someone who love you and never want to leave you.
珍惜。。。是一个再普通不过的字眼,每个人也许对这字的意思不感到陌生。可是,真正了解这字的意思并学着去珍惜的却没有几个。有些人不懂地感恩,把上天对他/她的好是理所当然的, 有的甚至得到了还不懂的满足,成天只会埋怨上天不公平的对待。虽然会听见身边不少人对我们说, 在一切都还来得及之前,快学会如何去珍惜。可是又有多少个傻子听明白了?有些人对身边每个为他/她的付出都当着是应该的,甚至连一点点的感恩之心都没有。因为他们总认为,身边的那个他/她的付出是因该的。自私自利的人啊, 请不要把别人的付出都当着理所当然。 在这世界上,没有谁是应该为谁付出的。如果可以,要永远记得珍惜并怀着一顆感恩之心去对待身边每个对你好的人。每个人只有一次活在世上的机会,千万不要等到太迟了才明白珍惜这两个字。所以说自私的人啊,赶快学会珍惜吧!尤其是对那些爱你又不会丢下你一个的人。

I need you ◆◇◆

I'm sick today . I have eat medicine, I feel sleepy becuz of tht medicine, but I trying to force myself to sleep late, because I dunno u will find me and chat or not. I keep waiting and waiting, now already going to be 1 in the morning, but I keep make myself to stay awake, even I know, tonight you might not find me. Because i dunno who am I to u? Am I so important to make you find me every night? Maybe, I'm just a friend, a normal friend for u. I got no right to find you every night. But I dunno why, I just want to wait. Even I know, you already got her, maybe now u are dating with her, maybe now u are chatting wit her, maybe now you are accompany-ing her. But I still wait you like a stupid girl here. If can, I really want to know, what u thinking right now. Are u missing me like what I did? Are you worrying me like what I did? Can you reply me? Can you?
我病了, 吃了药的我昏昏欲睡,眼睛就快就要盖下来了。可是,我不断的催眠自己,不断地告诉自己,我不累。对,我一点也不累!为什么我要这样虐待自己? 为什么不让自己好好休息? 原因很简单,我只想要和你聊天,哪怕只是说一句话,我也愿意等。其实,对你来说,我是谁? 我有那么重要吗?也许对你来说,我只是一个朋友,再普通不过的朋友。我也没有权利要你每天晚上陪我,因为我已经不再是你女朋友了,我已经不重要了。可是我还是想要等。可能吧,现在的你正在与她约会,与她开心地聊着天,在他身边陪着她。可是我还是像笨蛋一样的等。此时此刻的我很想知道,你到底在想什么?有没有想我一样,在这里不断地思念着你?有没有像我一样,在这里担心着你?你可以告诉我吗?可以吗?