Saturday 26 October 2013

Busy week

Im kinda busy with my assignment, presentation and other thing this few weeks.. I dunno why, no matter how busy I am, I still miss you. I have try to not think about you, but I cant. Reli wont back to me? How I wish I could go to my future and take a look about it...so that I will know, wht will happen to us in the future.

Saturday 19 October 2013

Time fly

Just on my facebook randomly, all of sudden I saw ur update...I knw it was updated from her. She purposely update it for me to see.
Time flies,  we break up for 5 months already. I reli miss you, but u will still care about it? 

Thursday 17 October 2013

曾经。。

有时,很害怕要出去, 去那些我们曾经一起去过的地方。有时,很害怕突然想起关于你的一切。有时,很怀念,曾经和你一起做过的事。最近虽然很忙,可是,还是会想起你。如果那天你回头了,我们会怎样呢? 也许,你现在过着的生活更高兴吧

Sometime, I will try my best to avoid to go to the place that we have been there before. I might be busy with my study stuff everyday, but I will still think about you. If tht day, ur choice that you make was me, what will happen to us now? Maybe, for you, there is no different.

Wednesday 2 October 2013

很累

分手快四个月,每天强逼自己去忘记,去放下,尽量让自己忙得像疯人一样。可是,还是会很突然地去想你,想起我们说做过的事,说过的话。越想,越觉得累。越想,越害怕。
因为你,我不再相信任何人。因为你,我不再想依靠任何人。曾经的你,是让我百分百的依靠。突然失去的依靠,让我一时之间接受不了。所以现在的我觉得,宁可把自己搞得更累,更惨,我也不要再依靠任何人。宁可担心随时失去的依靠,倒不如靠自己。你留下的伤够我痛一辈子了,我不想任何人在有机会去伤害我,所以我会学着一个人去面对,不管有多难,我相信,我能办到。

虽然有这样的想法,可是我很累。我也想有个人可以保护我,疼爱我,爱惜我。可是,能吗?还有什么人能让我去依靠,值得我去相信?我想,应该也不会在有人了吧。就算真的有这样一个人愿意永远留在我身旁,我也没有勇气再去接受。有时,会不断地想,为什么会让我遇见你?如果当初没认识你,我就不会那么痛苦,也不会像现在一样去折磨自己,把自己搞得这么累。19年以来,我都是一个人走来,路上遇过的,也不比现在少。如果没遇见你,我也一样可以一个人走。如果可以选,我不想遇见你,我也不会想认识你。我不明白为什么上天要安排我遇见你,难道,我遇到的还不够多?

既然现在你走出了我的世界,我不会再让你回来。曾经对我的承诺,欺骗,我会把它忘了。有一天,我也会把我们的回忆忘记。是你,让我觉得过度相信和依赖一个人是不值得的。谢谢你让我知道这个道理。我不会在去相信任何人。终有一天,我会把我们的回忆当笑话看,把故事笑着说出来。你的背叛在我心里会是一个永远也好不了的伤。