纠结 Problem that I cant solve

其实你。。还爱我么? 如果我真的选择放手, 你会感到痛吗? 或者我放手了,你也不会伤心,反而还会高兴。因为在你眼中我现在只是小三,我消失了, 你就不用烦了,不是吗?有时我真的很想知道,你到底还爱我吗? 还是只是在同情我。如果不爱了,请告诉我,我会离开。如果不爱了,请不要在对我好,我很笨,我会以为你还爱着我。
最近你一直逃避我,只要我开始关心你,你就会逃跑。如果不是有需要,你都不会出现。到底是我想太多了,还是你变了?你不再喜欢我,爱我了, 你可以向我解释清楚吗? 如果你再不出现并向我解释,我以后一定会想到疯了,要不然就是我放手了。

Actually,  are u still loving me? If ome day, I really choose to give up on you, what will you feel? You will feel hurt? Or maybe u may feel happy, becuz I'm a trouble maker between u and her. If I lost from your life, you will with her forever. Without me, u will feel more happy. If there is a day which you no love me anymore, please do let me know.At least, I wont so stupid to treat u good.
This few days, you started to avoid from me, when I have start to concern about you, you will lost from your phone. You will just appear again when u needed help from me. You will keep on avoid from me, izzit because u no love me anymore? Is just I overthinking? If you still dunwan appear and explain to me, I think, I might be leaving, or else, I might be crazy because of overthinking.