雨天的早晨

今天早上下了一场很大的雨, 我又想起你了。 明明说了想要放弃, 可是为什么脑里却一直有你? 以前你曾经说过, 要是一起出去, 我们遇到了什么危险的事, 你要我先逃跑。你说不管你发生什么事, 都要我安全地逃走。 那时的我不答应, 你很生气。 你说宁愿自己有事,也不要我发生任何的事。 因为如果我受伤或发生了什么事, 你会很自责, 你会觉得很对不起我,很对不起我的家人,因为保护不了我。 那时的我觉得我找到了, 我找到一个可以让我依靠, 保护我,照顾我的人。 可是,现在的你对我不闻不问, 和那时的你很不同。 我一直都在努力地挽回你,可是你呢? 我一直都在等,可是你从没回头看过我。 难道,真的要我放弃了,你才会觉悟?
I think of you again in this early rainy morning. I have choose to give up yesterday, but why, my brain can't stop for thinking about you? Last time, when we are chatting, u told me something. U want me to promise, if there is something happen when we go somewhere, you will want me leave first. It is because you don't want anything happen to me, you want me leave, so you can prevent me from getting any injured of accident. That time, I refuse to promise with you, you was angry with me, you told me, if I didnt leave and I get injured, u will feel very sorry to urself and my family, because you as a man, you can't even protect me. I feel very happy,  because I have found a guy which can always hold me, protect me, or care about me. But now,  u treat me lika a stranger,it was so different with what you told me last time.  I have did so many thing to get you back, but have you think of coming back? I have been waiting at the same places, but unfortunately,  you not even turn around and look and me. If, I really give up on you, what you will feel?