Dear god...

Dear god,
What you want from me? What you want me to do? What is the message you trying to bring to me? Im tired of all those challenge u gave to me. Can I just give up? If I give up in this challenge, will you promise to give me back my belongings? To me, they are so precious. I love them, I want them. I cant afford the pain of losing them. I want them to come into my life and wont leave me again. But why is it so hard? Is it because I not good enough to have it? I beg u, dun take back all those thing from me. Once u have sent those present to me, they are belongs to mine. You got no right to take them back. I just a human being who deserve for a normal life. Please, dun be so cruel to me.
致上帝,
其实,您要的是什么? 您要我如何继续走下去? 您做的一切是为了什么? 是要让我明白些什么? 我只想告诉您,我累了。你所给的挑战太大了,我并没你想向的那么强大。我可以放弃,认输吗? 如果我认输了,属于我的一切可以麻烦您还回给我吗? 对我来说,他们都是很重要的东西。我爱他们,我要他们。我想我应该再也不能承受起失去他们的那种痛。我要他们再次出现在我的生活里,然后永远都不会在离开我。可是为什么这一切都那么地难?是不是因为我不配拥有? 我求您,不要把原本属于我的东西一样一样地从我身边拿走。当你决定把他们送给我的时候,他们就已经属于我。送出去的礼物就不可以再收回,您也没权利收回。我要的不多,我只想要过个平凡的日子。如果可以,不要对我那么残忍。